I was at Caroline Myss workshop earlier this year. Something she said stuck to me “if my grandparents can come with a ray of hope from Poland in Boat to the US and settled down, there is no other fear that can bring them down”.
That stuck to me as I came with the same ray of light from India to Ireland. In Indian customs generally when girls get married (in general with arranged marriages like mine) you are bound to your man’s life till death. There is no going back. This is a custom that I grew up and knew that my life is only forward part and not in the past anymore.
But also these words made me think that there are no more fears that can bring me down as I crossed my biggest one in the past and its only my strengths that I will move forward with. I have conquered my fear when I was only 21 years old and sure nothing is tougher. And surely I can conquer anything else. This statement helped me a lot this year to let go of my fears and if any thought of fear comes I remind myself of the day I flew for the first time to Ireland with my husband. And I move forward with a smile.
At that time, all I had in my mind was hope, trust and ray of light to see the brighter future of our marriage and togetherness. I trusted someone I married only 24 days ago, I hardly knew more than my 21-year-old self. Trust is that keeps us going but Isn’t it amazing how we are programmed our mind to always trust someone else and not yourself. As a child to trust your parents, then teachers, then friends, partners and then when you grow old kids. But never ourselves. Just for a change TRUST your INTUITION and see what happens. Start with baby steps. Yes, you can do it.
As a couple, we have gone through all ups and downs like any other couple but the trust is what still holds on to in this relationship. Trust on each other and trust in our relationship.
If anyone reading this resonates with this story and been in the same journey just appreciate yourself and smile at your fears.